Re: Filmmaking & Brickfilming Discussion Week 2: Dealing with the Mockers
I was bullied a lot in elementary school, a lot.
There were a few people who picked on me relentlessly, and it really wore down on me in a way that I wasn’t even aware. ...whenever there was a situation where one person would be alienated (group projects, playground games etc) I was almost always the one left out. As I put up emotional walls to protect myself, it got to the point where I was, and still am, virtually incapable of making friends on my own. Because of the bullying I experienced as a child, I assume subconsciously that no one likes me.
The lesson here is that as painful as bullying is, don’t put up emotional walls to protect yourself. Walls don’t just keep out the people who don’t like you, they keep out the people who love you or would love you if they could just get to know you. In the last few years I’ve removed those walls for one person, and it felt great, and I’m trying to remove them entirely, but it’s really hard and emotionally draining, better to never build the walls than have to struggle to tear them down.
Been there, done that. Err...been there, stayed there, still there. Whoops.
Yeah, those emotional walls are not a pleasant thing, and I completely understand what you're talking about. I'm glad to hear you've been able to slowly start tearing down those walls for someone, nice work, you'll get there.